it happen again

I looked into his eyes and felt the pain. My blood stopped flowing and my body went numb. I barely dared to move, barely dared to look. I felt the scar on his chest and saw it happen again in black and white. The accident, that fear all over again. He grabbed my hand and I awoke from my dreadful dream. He felt so alive, so near, so warm. I decided to forget. I decided to pretend it never happened. 

undone

The bitterest tears shed over graves
are for words left unsaid 
and deeds left undone

Derek Hess

the definition of the word idiot.... which you fucking are.

idiot > noun informal a stupid person

Something to Talk About

It makes me smile. makes me cry. makes me dance. makes me sing. makes me hate you even more. makes me feel understood. lets me change emotions by just pushing a button. makes me close my eyes and feel happy.

Desperate Measures

After falling in love with a gay guy and a man, who happened to be the soulmate of one of my good friends I decided to stick to the one in my head.
Yes I do have a perfect boyfriend puzzled together in my head, everyone should.
His name is Raymond Charles Parker, also called Ray. Ray is a successful architect living in London. He´s 21, but has the charm of a 40 year old Gentleman and a little boy deep inside who happens to come out once in a while. To put the tip on the ice berg , I´m gonna have to tell you that he looks like Daniel Craig.
One day I will go and look for Ray and I will probably find him. And he will probably have a little, cute blonde stupid girlfriend. Yes people. I do have a perfect guy living in my head.
I´m not crazy. I´m a dreamer.

Above You, Below Me

I had never felt that feeling of love everybody was always talking about. I wasn't even sure I wanted to. Hormones rushing trough your system clouding your mind and compromising your judgement. A way of evolution to make us reproduce interpreted so wrongfully. It makes me sick.